Tuesday, 12 February 2019

At Home in Winter

Norman Rockwell




At Home in Winter

1.

We sit across from one another
in front of the fire, the big logs
clicking and hissing. Outside
is bitter chill: branches stiffen,
grow brittle as crystal. You're
sewing a skirt, your mouth
full of pins, your head swimming
with Greek and Latin. You frown
so not to swallow any pins when
you try to smile at me
slumped under my TLS and bewailing
the seepage of my days, the way
my life runs off like water, yet
inexplicably happy at this moment
balanced between us like a tongue
of flame skiving a pine-log: seeming
to breathe, its whole involuntary life
spent giving comfort. This
could be a way to live - nothing
going to waste, such fullness
taking off, warm space, a fragrance.
In plain matter of fact it's
the sight of you bending to baste
the blue skirt before you pleat and
sew the waistband in, that enters
and opens inside me, so for a moment
I am an empty centre, nothing
at all
then back to this home truth
unchanged: you patiently taking
one thing at a time as I can't,
all the while your head beating with
hexameters and foreign habits. So
I go on reading in silence as if
I hadn't been startled into another life
for an instant all fire, all fragrance.

2.

I blow in from the noonwhite bite of snow
to find the whole house fragrant as a haycock
with the soup you've stirred up, its spirit
seeping into closets, curtains, bedrooms -
a prosperous mix of chicken-stock, carrots,
garlic, onion, thyme. All morning you've
wreathed your head in it, and turn to me now
like a minor deity of earth and plenty,
your hands dipped to the wrist in the flesh
of vegetables, your fingers trailing
threads from the glistening bones
cairned on the counter-top. You stand
on the edge of a still life - twist-strips
of onion peel, papery garlic sacs, bright
stumps of carrots, the delicate grass-green
stems of parsley, that little midden
of bones. Spell-stopped, I see how
in the middle of my daily life a sober house
with its feet on the ground, snowbound,
turns to spirit of chicken, airs a vegetable
soul, and breathes on me. Wooden spoon
still steaming, you turn away and say
in no time now we'll sit, and eat.

Eamon Grennan


“This could be a way to live –nothing going to waste…warm space, a fragrance.” Like a pine-log in the fireplace, “seeming to breathe, its whole involuntary life spent giving comfort.” The way Grennan describes the feeling of the house, and the person of his wife through her actions, is lovely. She is creating and transforming their home, their relationship. The bit about her conjuring the spirit of chicken and a vegetable soul within a snowbound house makes me smile. We happen to be snowbound also, at the moment, and I think after reading this, I may have to make us some chicken soup. (There you go, another practical use for poetry – to inspire cooking.)


                                                                                                        

Monday, 4 February 2019

Finite and Infinite

Gustave Courbet - "The Wave"



Finite and Infinite

The wind sounds only in opposing straits,
The sea, beside the shore; man's spirit rends
Its quiet only up against the ends
Of wants and oppositions, loves and hates,
Where, worked and worn by passionate debates,
And losing by the loss it apprehends,
The flesh rocks round and every breath it sends
Is ravelled to a sigh. All tortured states
Suppose a straitened place. Jehovah Lord,
Make room for rest, around me! out of sight
Now float me of the vexing land abhorred,
Till in deep calms of space my soul may right
Her nature, shoot large sail on lengthening cord,
And rush exultant on the Infinite.

Elizabeth Barrett Browning
from The Penguin Book of the Sonnet, ed. Phillis Levin


All tortured states/ suppose a straitened place.”  What a beautifully accurate image that is! The poem is so perfectly crafted, showing how the wind and water are only worked up when they have boundaries to stop them, when they are held in, pent up, limited. The way Elizabeth Browning uses the metaphor of crashing waves for her state of mind moves me. I can relate. I've lived in a "straitened place" for several years now. A place where I am continually cast up against my own limitations. There has been little room for rest or peace. I too, have been crying out to God for relief, for room, for "deep calms of space {where} my soul may right her nature". "Vexing land abhorred" ?!! She's got that right. How good it is to know others have been in this place, and felt this way, and continued on calling out to God and putting up sails.








Saturday, 2 February 2019

Of Molluscs

Unknown




Of Molluscs

As the tide rises, the closed mollusc
Opens a fraction to the ocean's food,
Bathed in its riches. Do not ask
What force would do, or if force could.

A knife is of no use against a fortress.
You might break it to pieces as gulls do.
No, only the rising tide and its slow progress
Opens the shell. Lovers, I tell you true.

You who have held yourselves closed hard
Against warm sun and wind, shelled up in fears
And hostile to a touch or tender word—
The ocean rises, salt as unshed tears.

Now you are floated on this gentle flood
That cannot force or be forced, welcome food
Salt as your tears, the rich ocean's blood,
Eat, rest, be nourished on the tide of love.

May Sarton

“You who have held yourself closed hard...” Well what could be better than to be compared to a mollusc?! Is this what we read poetry for? I'm laughing, but it does seem to be true. I am "bathed in riches", I truly am, and this image of being floated on a gentle flood that nourishes me is quite wonderful. I have spent the last while hunting for and learning about molluscs, and to read now how I am like one is delightful. "Eat, rest, be nourished." I love that. The key is to welcome it.