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Dmitry Ageev |
The Voice You Hear When You Read
Silently
The voice you hear when you read silently
is not silent, it is a speaking-
out-loud voice in your head; it is
spoken,
a voice is saying it
as you read. It's the writer's
words,
of course, in a literary sense
his or her "voice" but
the sound
of that voice is the sound of your
voice.
Not the sound your friends know
or the sound of a tape played back
but your voice
caught in the dark cathedral
of your skull, your voice heard
by an internal ear informed by
internal abstracts
and what you know by feeling,
having felt. It is your voice
saying, for example, the word
"barn"
that the writer wrote
but the "barn" you say
is a barn you know or knew. The
voice
in your head, speaking as you
read,
never says anything
neutrally--some people
hated the barn they knew,
some people love the barn they
know
so you hear the word loaded
and a sensory constellation
is lit: horse-gnawed stalls,
hayloft, black heat tape wrapping
a water pipe, a slippery
spilled chirr of oats from a split
sack,
the bony, filthy haunches of
cows...
And "barn" is only a
noun--no verb
or subject has entered into the
sentence yet!
The voice you hear when you read
to yourself
is the clearest voice: you speak
it
speaking to you.
Thomas Lux
I’ve got a little collection of poem poems – that’s
what I’ll call them – poems about poetry itself, writing, or in this case, reading
(poetry, I’m going to say, because poetry is the voice I am most aware of),
that I’m going to be posting in the next while. This could be considered
overkill – like songs about singing or writing about writing, but think about
it a moment: a man sees something in his mind, he makes little black squiggles
on a piece of paper, another person scans these, and “hears” himself seeing the
things in the other man’s mind. It’s crazy. How on earth is this possible? It’s
not just that we see what the other man sees, it’s that he has become our
voice, which is to say, he has become part of us, and we a part of him, we begin
to hear ourselves through him. A part
and yet apart. Add to this the fact that this person might be 100 years gone,
and yet be spilling the treasures dearest to my heart, the secret thoughts I
recognized the moment I heard myself speaking them. Extraordinary. Something to
write poems about.
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